Welcome to the toughest hood on Earth! Motherhood!!

You know when they say it’s always something? 

Well, for me, it literally is ALWAYS something every single week.

I’m always putting out fires.

 I'm sure you all  can relate.

Vertigo. What the hell is that?

 A new challenge in the toughest hood I've ever been in. "Motherhood"!!

Sooooo I'm lying in bed sound asleep, it's about 3am.  It's also the night before my son's birthday. I'd been so excited about him turning 7 and giving him the party of MY dreams for a few months at this point. 

I’ve always felt like he had been given the short end of the stick. He never really had a real birthday party like all of my older children because of illnesses, financial constraints, new babies etc.  In my mind it was his time to shine. 

So,  I wake up out of my sleep with a banging headache.  I tried to sit up but I felt like I was falling even though I was still sitting on the bed.   At this point I'm getting scared because it feels like I'm going to pass out. If you saw the movie “Get Out” and remember the scene when the mom was stirring the teacup, and he started falling. 

Well that's what it felt like.

My body was falling, my head was pounding, I'm nauseous and I'm like, God, am I dying please, not on my son's birthday. 

So I called my husband who was sleeping on the couch and explained what’s going on.

He keeps telling me to just lay down, takes my temperature but  I’m freaking out every time the falling sensation comes. The feeling is coming and going every 5-1o minutes even with me lying completely still. 

 It’s one of scariest days of my life

Long story short. I eventually went to the ER and they initially thought that I was having a stroke but it turned out to be vertigo. And it just kind of crushed me!

I'm 42,  I'm not about to start taking more pills and having any additional ailments.

 I'm already dealing with an autoimmune disease. So what I'm not going to do is just give in to a life of illness to the point where I have to take any more than 1 pill a day.

I have children who need me and two who I may have with me for the rest of my life.

So I refuse to be sickly.. 

So I'm going to be diligent in changing my diet, changing my exercise habits and just staying on top of these doctors because I have to be here for my children. At the end of the day if mom doesn't show up, it doesn't get done. 

I’ve been down for about 2 ½ days now and the house is already in shambles.

Nobody's going to take care of your children like you. So while you're here, you have to do the best you can. And that's what I intend to do. I intend to work as hard as I can to build up something that will last far beyond my years. And my children's years if being completely honest. I'm trying to build a true legacy. One that will last and stand the test of time. But I can't do that if I'm sick and neither can you Momma. 

Make sure you're taking care of your health. Make sure you're taking care of your body. I know these children can be a lot with all their appointments, especially if you have multiple children, you're working and you have a husband or you just have a significant other, you're cooking and cleaning, you're trying to make sure the kids homework gets  done and you have school meetings, dinner lunches need to be made, everybody needs a bath. Sometimes somebody needs to get their hair done or dropped off at the hairdresser. You have to go to the market. You have to make sure you look good. Make sure your hair and makeup is done. Make sure you're ready for the work day. It's a lot and we cannot be superwomen if we are sick. Take care of yourself and I'll do the same!!  Until next time, keep doing your best.

Thanks For Coming Out God Bless And Good Night



  • Posted by Cilicia Irby on

    I think every mom share the fear of not being around for their kids or something tragic happening sooner or later. I think that’s why we bust our butt to keep everything in order and instill what we can into our children.

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